Stuck in Weds

I have soooooooooooo much to do today, but painting my nails and catching up on gossip girl is just so much more important right now.

I just want it to be Thursday at 135pm so that I can see Mr. Milne! I miss him!

All of this-he and I-it still blows my mind.

I'm a happy little lady! ;)

I'm scared but excited!!

So my interests in my new interest have greatly progressed. I really want to just dive right in and take a risk, but something is holding me back.

UGH! I don't know. All I can say though is that he is amazing! He makes me smile everyday!! I'm truly blessed, happy and grateful that he "bombarded" his way into my life.

I guess that in due time things will work out as they should. I just feel weird about having feelings for someone else so soon after Mr. Z.

Anyways, here is a picture of me and Patrick, I think we are so adorable!!! ;)

UH-OH!!

I've met someone that I'm interested in and he makes me smile.

Must watch/listen!!

Here in your arms-Hellogoodbye

Cover song.

Tucker Max

This is the picture of TUCKER MAX that Melissa took with her NEW BB!!

Better

I've been doing better. I still miss him, but I have a plan! :)

I've been trying to study for my PCAT and it just isn't clicking for me the way I would like it to. I'm thinking that I need to get me and Tucks away from the Love Shack and go somewhere without distractions to study.

Joan and Keith, and just all my friends, Melissa, Batch, Daniel, Raven, Kyle, etc....have been AMAZING at getting me through all of this. I don't know how I would be better the way that I am without them. So thank you so much everyone!

I've been having a steady flow of visitors and this pleases me! I am determined to be motivated today and gets TONS of stuff on my list done!!

However, my new addiction is hindering me from achieving my daily goals: "The Secret Life of the American Teenager"!!! I just finished season 1 yesterday and now I need to catch up on season 2!!

Oh and I rented movies so I HAD to watch those! The Soloist was amazing! Jamie Foxx did an excellent job!!

Here is my Tucker Max: (Melissa took it with her new BB!!)

(poo, it won't let me add the pic)

A push and a pull

I miss him.

I think about him everyday.

I feel like he pulls me in and I allow him and then I get pushed right back away.

I am glad that I have my own place now. I love it and I have been missing living on my own for sometime now. However, that does not mean I was ready to let go and quit on what we had. I don't cry anymore really, but darn it I miss him.

I know he does too but he won't say it.

I need to be strong and not allow him to play this tug-o-war with me.

Still Moving In

Tucker and I are pretty much moved into our cottage. I still have to finish organizing and settling in. Tonight we have our FIRST official guest!! I will post pictures of everything once it is all settled!

I can't wait!

updating from my BB!

Yeah! Just got my BB today! It's the new tour, but I like to call it the touro.
I love it!!

My Heart Hurts...

“Love isn’t perfect. It is not a fairytale or a storybook, and it doesn’t always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on and never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without. Love is work. But most of all, love is realizing that every hour, every minute, every second was worth it.” -Anonymous

I will miss this. I know deep down it's for the best...right now. I just hope that I am right in what I feel and that one day we will reconnect and find us again. And that it will work, for both of us.

But for now....I will be me. Rediscover me...and I am ok and excited about that.....