Quotes I like, from the past few days

“ I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

— Maya Angelou

"Dancing is like dreaming with your feet!"

~Constanze

“ Within you I lose myself…
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again."

Unknown

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind."

Dr. Seuss

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."

Maya Angelou

A horrible/AMAZING Weds and Thurs

So Weds was super ass lame AND busy! Woke up at 5am to finish some homework, cleaned, took Tucker for a jog. When I called Patrick at 6am, he could tell I had been up for a bit since I wasn't my normal morning monster-voice sounding self. went to class; saw Ginelli! Haven't seen her since Vegas pretty much. Meat lab was ok-it made me crave a slim jim. I got my oil changed, went to Verizon to bitch at them. The end product is that they are mailing me a new BB tour! :) Went to the store to buy waaaay more than I had intended, picked up my surprise for Rave and Booger, and I got Tucks some treats. Yeah, I'm a good Mommy and I LOVE to spoil my baby!!

Came home for a bit to let Tucks run around and then packed up my shit to head to the Medical library to meet Claudia. She is sooooooooooooo good to me!!! She bought me coffee!! Patrick was right! Coffee DOES make your pee-pers smell like coffee! Claudia is such a good friend and a great study partner, I really LOVE her. And she puts up with my immature antics!

Study study study in the library until my handsome guy got here at 1030pm! After his long ass day, he drove all the way down here just to spend the night with me and hang around a bit on Thurs! He's BEYOND awesome! And what did he have waiting for me?! A SLIM JIM!!!

Passed out at like 1am, up again at 5:42am-shower, study, homework, lab practical that Patrick drove me to! Thanks again Babes! Fell asleep in class, home to nap with Patrick. He leaved me :( and then I went to the library to study more until 12:45am. HA! Claudia, McBride and I studying-PURE COMEDY!! McBride and I=DISGUSTING comedy and just too much fun! Yeah, I pretty much HATE school!

But here is the best part:

Patrick left while I was gathering my garbage to go and study and when I came out to my car there was the BEST surprise on my car! He drew me an ADORABLE picture with a super sweet note attached AND...I had my own bag of JUST GREEN M&M's!!!! He knows that for me, the green ones taste the best!! He picked out all the green ones and made me my own SPECIAL bag!! FLIPPING adorable!

GOSH! I am so glad that guy came into my life!

Ok-bed for like 3 hours and then up and back to the library, doc, and work! PLEASE! KILL ME!

My OFFICIAL Booger and I!!

I think we are so flipping adorable!

STUDY STUDY STUDY!

I have been so busy busy and catching up on school since recovering from OINK!

I feel so bad for my Tucks since he hasn't been getting the attention he deserves! Now that it's cooling off I can let him sit outside with me while I'm at my fab patio set studying! Thank you again PGM for putting that together for me! I LOVES it!

PCAT is next weekend! FFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!

Zach is taking Tucker for the next 2 weeks so that will give him more attention and a backyard to run around in and me time to study and not feel guilty.

So now that I have been up since 5am, back to studying and then class and then errands and then more studying! BLAH!

Working a 25 hour week just isn't cutting it! 16 hours a week flat is a perfect balance of work, making moneys and having my time to study and sleep.

Some days I truly want to give up!! MAY MAY MAY!! it's almost here!!!

Stuck in Weds

I have soooooooooooo much to do today, but painting my nails and catching up on gossip girl is just so much more important right now.

I just want it to be Thursday at 135pm so that I can see Mr. Milne! I miss him!

All of this-he and I-it still blows my mind.

I'm a happy little lady! ;)

I'm scared but excited!!

So my interests in my new interest have greatly progressed. I really want to just dive right in and take a risk, but something is holding me back.

UGH! I don't know. All I can say though is that he is amazing! He makes me smile everyday!! I'm truly blessed, happy and grateful that he "bombarded" his way into my life.

I guess that in due time things will work out as they should. I just feel weird about having feelings for someone else so soon after Mr. Z.

Anyways, here is a picture of me and Patrick, I think we are so adorable!!! ;)

UH-OH!!

I've met someone that I'm interested in and he makes me smile.

Must watch/listen!!

Here in your arms-Hellogoodbye

Cover song.

Tucker Max

This is the picture of TUCKER MAX that Melissa took with her NEW BB!!

Better

I've been doing better. I still miss him, but I have a plan! :)

I've been trying to study for my PCAT and it just isn't clicking for me the way I would like it to. I'm thinking that I need to get me and Tucks away from the Love Shack and go somewhere without distractions to study.

Joan and Keith, and just all my friends, Melissa, Batch, Daniel, Raven, Kyle, etc....have been AMAZING at getting me through all of this. I don't know how I would be better the way that I am without them. So thank you so much everyone!

I've been having a steady flow of visitors and this pleases me! I am determined to be motivated today and gets TONS of stuff on my list done!!

However, my new addiction is hindering me from achieving my daily goals: "The Secret Life of the American Teenager"!!! I just finished season 1 yesterday and now I need to catch up on season 2!!

Oh and I rented movies so I HAD to watch those! The Soloist was amazing! Jamie Foxx did an excellent job!!

Here is my Tucker Max: (Melissa took it with her new BB!!)

(poo, it won't let me add the pic)

A push and a pull

I miss him.

I think about him everyday.

I feel like he pulls me in and I allow him and then I get pushed right back away.

I am glad that I have my own place now. I love it and I have been missing living on my own for sometime now. However, that does not mean I was ready to let go and quit on what we had. I don't cry anymore really, but darn it I miss him.

I know he does too but he won't say it.

I need to be strong and not allow him to play this tug-o-war with me.

Still Moving In

Tucker and I are pretty much moved into our cottage. I still have to finish organizing and settling in. Tonight we have our FIRST official guest!! I will post pictures of everything once it is all settled!

I can't wait!

updating from my BB!

Yeah! Just got my BB today! It's the new tour, but I like to call it the touro.
I love it!!

My Heart Hurts...

“Love isn’t perfect. It is not a fairytale or a storybook, and it doesn’t always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on and never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without. Love is work. But most of all, love is realizing that every hour, every minute, every second was worth it.” -Anonymous

I will miss this. I know deep down it's for the best...right now. I just hope that I am right in what I feel and that one day we will reconnect and find us again. And that it will work, for both of us.

But for now....I will be me. Rediscover me...and I am ok and excited about that.....

From my Artsy Fartsy collecion

"Virgin Mary"

(Taken at the San Xavier Mission)

"Marquee"

(Taken during a nice and hot stroll of downtown Tucson)

"Tree Fuzz"

(Taken during a stroll around my neighborhood)

"Cherry Water"

(Yeah-I am known for asking for cherries in my water rather than the old school lemon)

"Pedestrian Heart"

(Taken on campus while walking to my class)

HMMM

Not that I really have time, I hardly journal in the journal that I have but...I missed doing this. So I am back. YEAH! plus I can't sleep. The internet is being shotty and Tucker is sleeping and I don't wanna get him rowdy.